MaxAndFang4eva

I signed up for my classes so I wouldn't get dropped from them, but they are 322 dollars and I won't have the money to pay for them all. Not with my next pay check and I'm not getting any hours this week so I can't cover with next weeks either. I'm so screwed and am going to have to ask for help again and I really don't want to. Once I get my check for my other job, I'll be okay with money, but right now, things just suck ass. I can't handle all this stress. I have to get my dress finished and the only good thing is that I can work on it all this week because I don't have work. I also have a ton of reading and a test on the reading due Thursday. I'm still stressing about my parents money situation and almost started crying in class because I was thinking about it and worrying and feeling terrible because I couldn't do anything about it. The only thing I can do to help is buy christmas presents for them because they aren't expecting much and they would appreciate it. I want to get my dad new slippers and a shirt, my mom new shoes and a cell phone, and my sister a leopard gecko. I took some pictures of my friends today, but none of them like being in pictures, so they weren't good pictures. I wish they would let me take pictures of them because I want to kind of keep like a virtual scrap book, just for me to see. But who knows what will happen with that. Well, I should get to reading.

Much Love

I haven't been on here in forever. How sad. :[ I just reread all my entries and I'm said that I don't leave more posts. I've been getting a lot done on my book. Kinda. I have three chapters written which is a lot right now with school. I have a job, two actually. It's nice to actually have money to buy things for myself and for other people. But now my parents are having a hard time paying bills and my dad is talking about having to move and I'm really stressing out. They won't let me help out and I feel terrible. I don't want them to struggle and I want to help, but they don't want help and it hurts me. I don't know what to do. I want to just give them a check for a hundred dollars a month, but I think that they'd rip it up. I know they want me to be able to go out and do what I want and spend my money how I want, but I don't want them to struggle, I don't want to have to move! And to add onto my pile of stress, finals start in a week and a half, I have to have a dress made in two weeks, my sewing machine hates me, we play Occidental College on Sunday and I can't write one good essay to save my life. I just want to go to bed and cry, but I'll save that for later because right now, my amazing best friend is trying to distract me and was doing a really good job until I got on here...Once again, until next time.

Much Love.

I felt so fuckin unloved today! I was forgotten by my friends and when I made the effort to hang out with them even though they were doing something I wasn't too fond of...I got ignored or two words at the most!!! I felt like I just got in the way today. And when at one of my best friends houses, I felt uncomfortable and alienated...I've never felt like that at her house before. I've always felt at home. And I swear, her brother talked to me more that she did. And when I asked her questions, she just stared at me like, what is your problem? What the hell are you thinking asking me this shit? And I just wanted to leave as soon as I could. Unfortunately, if I had, it would've looked awkward because I had my sister and other friend with me that I had to take home too. Than, after I did take her home, my sister got mad at me because I leave her out of "the group", which is just me and my friends and she is in no way part of "the group". And you know what...I don't even feel like I'm in the damn "group" right now anyways!!! GOD!!! And now I have a fucking headache and don't even want to talk to my friends for days...

So, I just finished watching American Idol, and there is really only one persong I LOVE, and that is Danny Noriega...OMG!!! AMERICA IS JUST A BUNCH OF FUCKING IDIOTS!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY GOT RID OF DANNY!!! D: I LOVED DANNY!!! HE WAS MY BOY!!! THE ONE NIGHT, THE ONE FUCKING NIGHT I WASN'T HOME TO VOTE, YOU MOTHER FUCKING IDIOTS GOT RID OF DANNY!!! DAMN YOU!!! DAMN YOU ALL!!! And now that I have finished venting I still don't feel any better...and please don't take offence to this if you read it...I'm just really pissed Danny left because he was my favorite and I couldn't vote to keep him there. ARGH!!! IT'S JUST!!! NNN!!! GOD!!! AND NOW I'M PISSED AND CAN"T SLEEP!!! 


But on a much happier note. I've been talking to a couple really cute guys on myyearbook and they are really nice. And all I have to say is, I don't think I've ever blushed that much before in my life!

I am so excited!!! Tomorrow is Senior Hug Day (Valentine's Day to the rest of the world) and at our school, all the seniors during second period go down to the MPR and have a little party and get buttons and HUG!!! YAY!!! And me and three of my friends made shirts, well, a lot of people made shirts, but we tye-dyed ours! They look so pimp! And then we wrote song lyrics on our shirts! Well, I did a band name, Bullet for My Valentine! HELLZ YEAH!!!! heehee, so anyways, we did that, and we are going to be the coolest ones at school! And be hella pimped out! I hope everyone is jealous! Okay, anyways, I gotta get going to bed, so I'll tell you about what a terrible day I actually had today, sometime tomorrow...Until next time.

Much Love. 

So, today at school kinda sucked. I spent all of my classes trying to do my government homework that was due fifth period. Ugh! That sucked! OMG! It was so funny today! Oscar and Jessi did a little role reversal today, and Oscar was "straight" and Jessi was "gay"! XD It was the greatest thing ever! After that I had to go to softball! It was just the worst thing ever! So, right after I got out of my car from changing, I got a freaking bloody nose! Which would have been great, had I not had to report to the Spawn of Satan, a.k.a. Tavernor, my softball coach. So after I get it to slow up, I go down to where they are running, figuring, hey, I should be with the team! I was DEAD wrong! That bitch made me go out to where they were stretching and told me I could run with them! What the hell is she thinking?! I got a FUCKING BLOODY NOSE and she wants me to RUN! So after we stretch I tell her I need to go get a new tissue, and she keeps insisting that she see my bloody nose, and when it isn't bleeding that much that I'm fine and can run. So I told her that it was running down the back of my throat, and she told me not to give her attitude, so after the fourth time she told me to show her my nose and i told her it';s running down my throat, she told me to go to the nurse. So than it stops and I get a note from the nurse saying that I can't run. When I got back down the fields, I swear she was gonna kill me to death with her glare! So that was my day, now I'm at my sisters softball practice.

My god! I hate being sick. So, because I've been sick the last couple of days, I haven't gotten any homework done, and now have to get a ton of shit done for school tomorrow. and on top of that, I'm still not feeling good, so I can't even concentrate on finishing my homework! God! Life sucks! On the good side of things, The next Maximum Ride book, The Final Warning, comes out on March 17, the next House of Night Novel: Chosen comes out on March 4, The next Twilight book, Breaking Dawn, come out on August 2, the next book in the Inheritance series, Brisingr, comes out on September 20, and the Twilight movie and Harry Potter theme park open on December 12!!! So, I can't wait for those! YAY! The good things in life! I've been working on my book, unfortunately i lost a paper that had a list of names I was gonna use. Hopefully I'll find that soon. Well, I guess I should get back to my homework. 'Til next time. Much Love.